2nd Day.

Emotional. -.-

Sad Happy Fun
Sad Happy Fun
Sad Happy Fun
Sad Happy Fun
Sad Happy Fun.


Basically, we all had a very very sad but meaningful programme this afternoon.
And everyone cried, or should i say almost everyone cried. Including me~! =D


Yesterday night, i was thinking a lot of things, and i managed to control my tears. But in the end, today i just cant control anymore, i cried.

I know i'm in the wrong, i shouldnt had make a fuss over such small things. In the end, both of us are emotionally hurt.


What happened today?
The whole scene was really very sad and touching.

The instructor, AMIN, was standing in front, explaining a lot a lot of things. Telling us to go home, say "I LOVE YOU" to our parents. Asking us to think, what will we remember if our parents are gone?

For my father, i would remember
the care and concern he gave all these 16 years,
all the things he got me when i say i want,
his smile,
his voice,
his encouragement.

For my mother, i would remember
her cooking,
her smile,
her naggings,
her voice,
her words of encouragement.


Actually, i felt really hopeless. Come to think of it, having to quarrel with my dad for those stupid minor things is really a very dumb thing to do. I haven't been talking to him for about 1 week or so, and the problem is that i had always wanted to say SORRY to him, but i just dont have the courage to do so.

But thanks AMIN for asking us to write 2 letters. One for ourselves and one for my parents.

I can reveal the letter i wrote for myself, but not the letter i wrote for my parents.


Dear Zhao,

I'm very thankful for having such great parents in life who keep on encouraging, supporting and giving advices to me. Although at times, they tends to be very naggy, but i know it, they did all those cause they care for me. They will try their very best to get want i had always wanted, giving all the best things they can afford. I'm really very thankful to be part of this family, with my parents and my siblings all by my side. But the problem with me is that i just dont seems to appreciate what they had done for me. I really regret for being so selfish. I'm in the wrong to have quarrelled with my dad and resulting a "cold war" to breakout for the one whole week. I really dont know how i can do to save our relationship. I dont know how to speak up, apologise and to say just a simple SORRY. I wish i really had the chance to say just a simple SORRY, just a sorry will do, i will feel very much better. I've been disappointing them again and again even though they care for me, concern for my exams and take care of my well-being. I'm SORRY, daddy mummy!


It really takes me quite a long time to think about all my past, my weaknesses, my wrongs. I'm going to place the letter for the both on them tomorrow morning, before i leave school.

But i must really say, "I'M SORRY, I LOVE YOU DADDY MUMMY."


Anyway, i cried for qutie a long time. And my eyes are very pain now.
I've really decided to change, decided not to disappoint them with my results again. I PROMISE.


My eyes are really very pain now. I need a rest.
Oh ya, our 3 instructors was AMIN, RAMESH, WOEI TANG(i think so).


Tomorrow is the last day of the workshop. I hope we wont cry again.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NABILLA baby~~!!!

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you!


I LOVE YOU, daddy mummy!