Zhaoyi, The Girl With Short Fingers

Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday, the 13th

Totally sucks. Today is Friday, the 13th. I'd never ever believe that bad thing will happen on me on this day. But yes, it did today. I was in the library since 10am, sitting at a corner mugging for my upcoming exams. Many people walked past. I kept looking up, hoping that the next person walk past would be you. But it's never that case. I dont know what i should do. Should i reply, or should i not. Maybe something really happened in the morning that affected you so badly. But looks like i dont have to chance to ask you personally. or maybe i'm really not as thoughtful, not as understanding as other girls. Yah, maybe what i should do in the first place is to ask you what happened through sms. I'm so silly to be waiting for you to come before i ask. Friday, the 13th. It's my first having such unpleasant thing to happen on this date. I stoned for almost an hour, before i forced myself to get back to my revision. I guess nothing had gotten into my head. I wasnt angry in the first place. I just wanted to wait for you to come before i ask you what happen. Or i'm even willing to lend out my ears for you to throw whatever unhappiness in it. You said i'm not honest, and i wasnt given a chance to clarify. Or maybe you'd given me the chance, but i'm just too stupid to let it slip away.

I'm not a very perfect girlfriend.
I'm not as understanding as everyone'd thought.
I'm so stupid to think that i'm the one forcing you to travel all the way down here.
I'm so silly to made the choice of wanting to cheer you up only after you arrive.
I should have make you laugh through smsing in the first place.
I'm not honest.
Maybe i'm in the wrong this time.

I wanted to ask you some econs.
I wanted to sing for you today.
I wanted to cheer you up today.
I wanted to tell you what i'd plan for us during the holidays.
All these are what i wanted to do today, but i'd no chance to do so anymore.

I sucks, I'm sorry.

6:40 PM
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